ku bervandalism

rini ku plug in earfon kt my fon tp sound dia krok krek sket
ble ku adjust2 pn dia masih mengada... akhirnya satu je solution kt kepala ku
ku baling ke lantai fon tu
dan fon ku berderai... padan muka ko fon!!! puas hati ku
ku da kata kt fon tu,

JANGAN MENGADA WAT AK NEK DARAH
ha, kn bersepai ko td... amik lu!

tp xde berderai ne pn, juz tercabut batery n cover blakang jek
nt lau dia k.o lg...ku akn buat benda y sama je kt fon tu

PUAS rasanyer dpt baling n ble fon tu bersepai body, rasa sgt2 meledak
cm nk pijak2 fon tu pn ad... muaahahahaha!!!
lau lu rasa nk idop lg wahai encik fon, lu bek sket wokeh
nt ku carik len, lu ku cempak bg bersepai plak... lantak lu r!

geram gler xdpt dgr lagu...da r inbox xley bukak, fon tu memg cri nahas!

al-fatihah

apapun yang terjadi
berjalanlah tanpa henti
air mata tertahan
waktu untuk dijatuhkan
nanti kita kan tahu
betapa bijaknya hidup

semoga kepergianmu
tak akan merubah apapun
semoga mampu ku lawan
kesepianku...



a dearest friend told me a lost today
and broke my wall of tears
reminding me of the one dearest i lost 3 years ago
it has been a very while since i cry for the one i precious most
a guy who is so dear to my heart
but i need to keep playing the sound to myself
that Allah loves him best
more than anyone could ever

that day when i knew he's gone
i was so miserable thinking and regretting
i tried to call his number
but it was no more available
that was the time i keep telling myself

he is no longer there to pick up the phone
he is no longer there to reply my messages
he is no longer there for anything

eventhough it was my friend's someone
i felt that mine just happened yesterday
and i really am miss him so much


to my beloved dear sister NORASHIKIN ZULKAPLE
be brave and be healthy... there's a long way to go
insyaAllah... alfatihah

pissed..huhu

one more tym, dia wt hal, rasa cm nk bg beliau melayang cm dlm lagu pepel tu jek... seb bek ler ku masih SAYAAAAAAANG kamu wahai mr nokia ku~ dr ritu masuk nih mcm da 2 hari or sumting di xnk bg ku bukak inbox! pe kes nyer laa...

da bpe kali miskol masuk dlm inbox tu, voicemail lg, org2 msj...sume pn xley nk buat pe2~ bencilaaaa~~~ huhuk

dia plak berseminar pe tah, smlm kol ku xley nk angkat sbb ad kwn kol... sory~ seb bek ku sempat bgtw xyah msj sbb ku xley nk rep, ble dia kol, ku plak xdpt nk jwb, sbb tgh berbual...

huhu, ampun~

nk buat cne jek lg nih kt mr nokia tu ek? da scan virus, da clean up pon, tp masih xley jgak. igtkn memory card wt hal tp tah ler... ku lau bg part2 techno nih mmg HANCUS sket... no, no... hancus meletus! laptop pakai pn jd cmtu, bley plak ku 'ter'uninstall driver sound, dah nih ku tgk muvi bisu kt lappy ku nih... cet! hmm, lantak pi dia r, malas ak nk beki...nt2 je r

balik umah~ hohoho balik umah~

posting kali nih nk bgtw y KU DA BALIK UMAH~ haha
ad sorg y ku kenal nama dia TOKWAN, dia xbalek lg...ku nk gelak sbb dia terkandas lg, sbb pe tu xyah gtau, hahahahahahahahahah~ besnyer gelak! hihi...bru pas kol bliau td senanyer

alang2 da buat posting nih an, ku nk cte sal ku blek ritu~

balek ngn ikin, pg kul 930 dr kuantan. pg tu, ku terlewat bgun...kot...sbb tym ku mandi, ikin ngn sern g toilet pgil "KONAH!!!" hahahaha~ rupa2nyer dorg da siap.ku amik masa dlm 30 min nk turun pas siap2 sume, and trus gerak ke kuantan. nk hantar sern ke terminal. memula dia kata bas dia kul 9, ble usha tiket, rupa2nyer 930. seb bek r lebih lmbt dr waktu y dia gtw sbb jam kt tgh jalan. awal pg kot, org berpusu nk ke tempat keje.

then gerak ler ku n ikin berdua dlm keter menuju ke selatan...lebih tepat n padat, johor.
rekod jugak perjalanan balik kali nih, sbb pe?? wehell~ KTRG XSTOP KAT NE2 TOILET! haha~


sampai kt tol, ktrg da gigil sbb xtahan nk teeet...haha!
then ikin drove off, ku masuk ke surau jamak zohor asar, sbb nt family ku amik dr situ (tol aitam) n trus ke jb plak. npe g sna? nk amik my bro kat hostel dia kt skul seni. then g hospital. melawat guru besar skul adik ku awin y sakit di HSA. but unfortunately, ku tgal kat bwh sbb my lil sis below 12, ku n adik laki sorg lg tgu kt bawah. mis tu kata H1N1, xley r nk masuk, bahaya! haha~ so lepak bawah...ada r dlm sejam ku tgu kt bwh, da xtw nk buatpe, ni ku mik pic...usha2 kat hall n depan farmasi HSA tu


mlm smpai umah dlm kul 9 ke mcm tu,sbb xlama pas ku masuk brg dlm bilik, cte femes kat tv pn on, NURKASIH...layan~ da, tu je nk ckp kali ni...sok2 ku update lg, insyaAllah~ papai, ku nk g mkn...nyum3

CHEERS...and TEARS!!!

i was watching this one movie i downloaded from a senior link, the title was something like ghost of girlfriend bla3... the thing is, dem it moved me to tears for a while

the guy was a player

but then he was taken by past girlfriends in form of ghosts

to make him realize how wonderful and how love can hurt

and break people apart.

then plots moved to family ties...

and this is the only one dem possible thing that i assure everyone

even a bit coverage of family stuff

will move me to tears!

and yeah, i cried...

suddenly when i'm in my watery eyes, my mom called!

no, no... it was sumting else

my sister who sat for UPSR, got 5A's...

CONGRATS LIL SISTER!!!

i know she can do it better than i did, well i just got 3 to put me in high school (STK) but i didn't went there. instead, i went to just normal daily school, accompanying my elder sis. Well, had fun there i can say... mixed with lots of friends from my neighbourhood... memories...

back to my sis,

oh yes, she's good at school, a zapin dancer, pretty kid, with a brigh smile...

just sometimes a bit stubborn

well...kids...

i used to be more than stubborn

was naughty and bad too, haha~

again, my tears fall when i heard the bright news of her success.

WELL DONE!

she might not be reading this, coz i dont even think she knows that i own a blog here,

neither do i think she knows what blog is...

but its just my happiness to share my story on her here...

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

u deserve it well...

xde kedit nye hal...caits

my dad called just now and...

first call

asking me why didnt i reply his msg...hihi

2nd call

"its raining cats n dogs, i cant go out to buy u tpups!" thats what he said by phone just now.

dats y i luv my dad, he'd do anything to help his daughters...

actually... to anyone trying to msg me

FORGET IT TILL NITE

i'm just too lazy to go downstairs and tpup

2cents left but already messaged ikin n my dad

so no more left

till i went down, no messages plis...

the jamuan took our breath

akhirnya

ak telah mempunyai sedikit mood utk menaip

hal y berkaitan aktiviti ku

JAMUAN RAYA BKB

organized totally by 2bkb

ARIGATO for u guys cooperation!!!

list of member?

pengarah pgram: KONAH

pen. pengarah: AMY

s/u: TUN

finance: LILO+NAT

and all the ajk's from 26 n 27~

14 OCTOBER 2009

yup, thats the scary date... put us half to madness

encountered too much problems

but finally

suceed to overcome the barriers

and the event went so fine

that all of us were praised

for the successful event

pretty much i could say... TEAMWORK!!!

what probelms???

DATE...

so hard to fix a date but later,

agreed it's all to our date not what the audience asked for,

our event, we held it,

the date IS OURS!

VENUE...

picked up a place

logistic made clear

we went to the treasurer department

discussed on stuff to use

electricians bla3

nothing to worry?

here's the turnover...

the place we THOUGHT ours

was booked!!!

we ABSOLUTELY have no where to go

no place for the event

held meeetings... BRAINSTORMING

(hecks... 14/10 is just the day after tomorrow! wat to do???)

IDEAS OF ALTERNATE VENUE:

1. mosque

2. basketball area

3. sport complex (too far at night)

4. banquet

5. in front of the canseleri

6. ...doomed!

well, after trying so many of that

asking the department related to venues

i went myself to the registration department

asking for banquet

got it... at first

14/10 IS TOMORROW!!!

sudden call from that department in the morning

the place was booked

from morning till evening by staffs

held meeting and dine stuff bla3

i'm blurred...

called the electrician department

called the treasurer department

cancelled everything from them!

went back to the registration

called the lect (head of BKB)

told the situation

bla3...

asked for the place

THE EVENT MUST BE DONE BY TONIGHT

NO MATTER WHAT...

14 OCTOBER... TODAY!!!

talk here and there

ask this and that

get everybody's head centered

I GOT BANQUET!!! finally...

FOOD...

another thing to worry

MONEY to pay the caterer

MONEY collection from students

WHERE ARE THE MONEY??????

that night

able to get everything

lend the money

have some with me here in the room

going to return rm 1 per person

(i got rm50+ with me, so returnable)

the event?

WENT JUST PERFECT!

luv u guys~

pic? view it via my fb... uploading it soon

bosan

satu pesan dr Dr Fadzilah Kamsah y sgt ku igt dlm mana2 talk beliau
" maafkan semua org sebelum tdur maka kita akn lebih bahagia dan ceria "

tp mcm mana kalau kita maafkan tapi susah nk lupa???


yang dikejar xdpt y dikendong keciciran... how if, not chasing but still losing?

do you know... what its like... when it hurts... doesn't feel so right.

just around the corner

ku rasa agak stressed out jgak sbenarnyer tym2 nk exam nih
tp alhamdulillah sgt2 ku bley jawab papers stakat nih dgn ok
hopefully markah len2 pn akn ok...insyaAllah, amin~



sekejap je masa berlalu
rasa mcm 2009 baru beberapa bulan
tp da smpai november, da dekat penghujung tahun pn
wondering...

apa kejahatan y ak dah buat tahun nih
apa kebajikan y ak dah bg kat org tahun nih
apa pulak org buat kat ak sepanjang 2009
berbaloi ke x semua aktiviti ak tahun nih
macam mana nk jd lebih elok tahun depan

tetiba teringat satu lagu...


when i'm lost on the way
and i cant face another day

if i stumble on the road
if i cant carry the load
if i lose my faith to kindness, generousity

would you hold my hand
say you'll understand my pain


few days ago, ku n rumet berdiskusi mcm2 hal... well, girls talk
life, families, studies... boys~ haha
one of my rumet ad prob ritu ngn bf, the other 2 were just very fine doing
ku? entahlah... someone told me
" i still dont see you settling down with only a guy "
kinda lose my faith in guys actually

after what i've gone through
i dont see myself attached to the only one
but i'm worried that i'll hurt the people around me
ku sgt xbermaksud nk sakitkn hati anyone
neither nk play the fool around

some people say that i'm being childish and fooling around too much
well, there's a reason for everything, right?
and there is a reason for my behaviour
but i'll just keep it to myself...


i dont want to listen to any lies anymore
i dont wanna hear sweet promises from anyone
i dont wanna hear things that will hurt me much worse
cause once broken, the shattered will take a long time to forget
and i'm so not good at forgetting
the broken pieces will forget their places
the tears will run as if there's no more to dry
the 'old' me will come out again and i dont wanna show it

missing the me inside... where am i???

seems to me that lately i've been in my blues searching for things that i dont even have a clue... sometimes i think i'm going crazy but hopefully i'm not
maybe it's the exam week, maybe it's the stress i'm in, maybe...maybe anything...that i dont know
this evening, just a few hours ago... i was on my bed, turning my side to the wall, and i cried... for the reasons i'm not cleared about
thinking of people around me
thinking of friends and my family
thinking of persons who care about me
and persons i care about


but i cried, doesn't make sense... does it?


i need my family... thats the only thing that helps me regain myself

last night, the song came to the radio that i was listening to... titled "oh ibu"
out of nowhere, tears were shedding and running so fast down my cheeks
could it be that i miss my mom so very much? should be~

i wiped the tears but it didn't stop
my roomates were smiling looking at me
saying i'm weird...haha
it's ok, i'm just being free to be the me inside out

a night of fright

i just got the chance to type a post in here but jus dont have the mood to continue what i mentioned before...to write the AMY thing yet


its study week and i've been crazily LAZY at this hour. by 5 i got a discussion to attend, since my group will be submitting our saimen by next wed. i'm taking the introduction, and information been piling up my papers. i just feel like needing more time to sleep, sleep and sleep...


two days ago i was out from room, where? as far as i remember, on sat, i went out to...to...i dont remember...but yesterday i went out with a guy friend, went to pizza, walk for a while waiting for 6.30 for PANDORUM, at Mega... wasnt a large pizza meal, but me n that friend was already too tired to stuck it up down the intestines. so we spent around an hour and a half in there just to wait for clear digestion before sambung semula menyumbat perut. hahaha~


lucky that by the weekend i was not available for praying, so had the time out so well that i dont have to remake up my face.haha! but the aloe vera gel i wore really make my nose sparkle, my roomate said that she can see my nose going shinig. i wasnt sweat because we've been in the aircond car and that time was night.


oh now i remember what i did on sat!!! we went out to send one of us home at the terminal. lepak2 at Rahath, creepy night. why? ad org tua with white hair who sits next to our table (taking into account that his chair is 2 after me).. what is the matter? he's EYEING US! from the beginning he put his ass down.


bedah told me that a guy from my back is peeking at us...ok it was 1130 at night when we arrived there, so what? dont need those perverting eyes though! so i tried to turn around to see who the person was, but to my HUGE SURPRISE AND FEAR, i saw the white hairy man looking straight at me. that's when i should say shit! well i didnt...


so we finished our late night meal and sent one of us to the terminal. a someone told me not to sent her up the terminal cause its quite up there and not much people upstairs. so she stays below... and as soon we were at the corner of the Rahath, i saw the old man at his car, looking here and there! seems to me he was looking for someone...worse, us???


i asked bedah n jijah to walk straight to the stalls where we hide and walk to our car. told jijah to get into the car first, lock her door then open ours. wasnt clear of my instructions, jijah turned the car and drove next to the old man's car. we weren't looking at him, for god sake...haha! we reached UMP around 1am...lucky we were saved from anything bad that night!