my love to share

Assalamualaikum wbt 

heheheh... my nawaitu nak buat entry tentang benda lain but then terfikir sumting time-time tengah proses tabii tadi.........choi kutur tauuu...eles, macam ler u ols x buat proses tu kannnn. ok ok. back to what i meant for this entry, sejak dua tiga pat mer menjak ni, sejak-sejak sem da nak tammatun ni, ramai pula tengok orang pergi datun-datun, bukan datuk datin laaa...dating! ngehehe... anda termasuk dalam golongan ini kah?

olrite, kalau nak baca boleh baca, kalau nak komen jangan spicy sangat, i like original...

     

note: oleh kerana i gegel, so to mr bf lah kn pic, haruslah boy.. (^___^)

okeh tak salah rasanyer kalau kita berdating........ye ke???? siapa setuju? xperlu angkat tangan kaki segala, baca je, kang angkat itu ini, ada pulak terselak-selak yang x patut, hesh. syarat nak dating? .......aik, ada kena bersyarat ke? rasanyer orang yang nak/dah/akan ber-dating ni mestilah kan orang yang mempunyai partner, sebab tu namanya dating, kalau bukan antara 2 makhluk berlainan jantina yang ada feeling-feeling ni, x kan lah pulak namanya dating kan, tu namanya meeting maybe? haha. lain pulak terms dia ye, padahal yang berjumpa tu sama je, lain jantina. yang sama jantina berjumpa kalau term dia masih dating.....hurmmmm ad aneh di situ mungkin? no comment~ ahak lagi. okeh, disebabkan anda-anda-anda yang dok berkapel sana sinun dan dating merata di mata aku, ada entry KHAS untuk bakal boifren yang akan datang... konon-konon akan datang lagi encik boifren, konon-konon jelaaaaa.....  ye tahu, saya x laku macam kamu.... T_T 

SO, syarat-syarat yang u patut tahu for u to be my bf nanti ye darling~ meh baca sikit ye, x banyak, memang sikit je pun my rules and regulations ni...da macam law pulak ye, takpe-takpe, rules ni pun i buat untuk kebaikan kita....wah kita ghetuuu~ ahaha.

1. PEGANG-PEGANG TANGAN YANG SUWIT-SUWIT KAPEL SALU BUAT NI - i tidak akan benarkan u sentuh tangan i dengan sengajanya sebab tangan u belum tentu suci, dan i belum mampu nak tanggung dosa yang i lakukan sendiri apatah lagi bila i sentuh u jadi jangan biarkan tangan u kotor oleh tangan i yang masih dibawah hak en abah dan puan ibu. u don't deserve it and you have exactly no right to do so! (alhamdulillah ak masih belum pernah sentuh mana-mana tangan anak bujang orang walaupun dah berkali-kali putus chenta...tahniah untuk diri sendiri)

2. THOSE THREEEEEE WORD - i will not easily say i love you because those words meant so much dear to my heart, so i xkn ler nak sonang-sonang bagi u dengar yang i cakap i sayang u, no way bebeh. only after certain times that i am able to convince myself that u are someone important, will only by then i say the words to you. but not saying it doesn't mean i don't feel it, but i'm a stubborn who need myself to convince me about the true feeling. ok? u x marah kn? good! sebab i pun akan pandang the very low-low kat u kalau u senang-senang je whisper those words. i don't like sweet-talkers. i hope my bf-to-be will be none of this type. ameen~

3. i am a chubby-kinda person ( ye ke ni??), and i'm short. so i would be very glad if u don't feel ashamed for walking or communicating with me, like my previous ex (sorry to mention u), he accepted me the way i am (well that's what i believe to be), thank you for that. plus, since i'm happy with that, i grew a few kg(s), haha! sooo.... if you think you cannot accept someone who is oversized, plus size, XXXXX...L, then i wish you not go nearing me neither you will acknowledge me. that would i definitely be glad of. you know how it hurt myself when they tease, but i endured it and pretended it was nothing much to think of, not just me, but also goes to any other extra sized girls. i will not say i hate it, but i rather use the word, i don't like you to mention it. i prayed that someone will accept me the way i am, a plus size (ye ke aku ni plus size pny kategori ek? watever lah kan...) how if u were in these type of size and they talk to u in such manner? opppss, jangan emosi-emosi pula ye. hehe sorry~

4. next, u kenalah tahu yang i ni perempuan, betul-betul sungguh u ni female, confirm tanpa ragu-ragu, dan kejadian perempuan ni adalah makhluk emosi. so andaikata satu masa u tengah hepi-hepi then u cari i but i was not in the mood, i hope u akan menjadi orang yang sangat memahami yang itu kerja encik hormon dan kak emosi dalam jasad i ni. janganlah pula nanti u marah-marah sebab i x nak layan u borak-borak. u kenalah sporting, boleh kan? boleh kannnn?? ala bukan selalu pun, setiap bulan mengambang je. boleh kannnn~

5. last but not least (later i boleh update lagi syarat ni kan), i hope you can accept my family for i will consider your family as whom i wish to know after i know you. so if u nak kenalkan nama i kat your sister/brother/friend pun u segan/malu (possibly sebab i extra, who knows), then don't even think of making me your gf. sebab? i really appreciate your concern for introducing me to your family, because! you are not the only choice i have.... eh, eh... masih laku okey this oversized girl, pe u ingat i  x laku ke? kalau u nak kenalkan i kat your family pun malu-malu-malu, i ada orang yang menunggu untuk bawa i jumpa parents diorang tauuuu~ haha. that part i can be sooo proud bit of myself. astagfirullah, sedar sikit jangan nak eksen (tampar-tampar-tampar encik teddy bear)

okeh, tu je syarat i bagi untuk u mr boifren-to-be-future-hubby. ouh, one more thing i nak pesan kat u ye darl, u jaganlah belajar/tahu macam mana hisap rokok/tembakau/cerut/shisha/adik-bradik-nyer.... sebab i wish my bf2bfh ni seorang yang sihat dan menghargai nyawa i, u xnak hargai nyawa u tu u punya pasal lah kan. later-later nanti anak-anak i terikut u punya tabiat hisap rokok pulak, cukup-cukup ler mr abah i tu merokok, i tak nak tauuuu u hisap rokok ni. no-no-no dear~ bagi lah i family-environment yang sihat untuk i and anak-anak i (macam dah nak kahwin sangat plak kan masuk bab anak-anak ni). 

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*anytime when i flashback that moment when i looked at mr abah yang sudah tua, my tears can't stop... bertakung lagi untuk entah kali keberapa... garis-garis kedut dimuka abah membuatkan aku sedih, betapa jauh abah dah berjalan, gigi yang banyak dah pergi meninggalkan sang gusi...ah menitik lagi airmata, terkenang... ah, menaip lagi dengan airmata, mana lagi nak sorok muka sik menangis je bila teringat T_T
SEMOGA IBU DAN ABAH KU SIHAT DAN BAHAGIA DUNIA AKHIRATMU YA ALLAH~ ameen.* (i don't care how much less the love others gave me because the crucial part is the love i get from my parents and the blessings, thank you ibu and abah for having me as your daughter)

p/s~ banyak sangat menangis bila teringat, rosak tak mata? insyaAllah penglihatan ini dalam peliharaMu ya Allah. nangis baca entry sendiri, sambil telinga cucuk earphone dengar lagu blog encik Awang ni, thank you for having the background music, i fell in love with it already tho i don't understand much arabic words.