bila ak da xley nk amankn hati sendiri, lagu2 lak buat ak terawang2 terbg masuk pintu khayal y ne tah...wats d matter? yup! sumting's wrong with the inner me (not that i'm going insane, no lar~)
hati rasa x aman bila ak kontek sumone really important, for reasons, the fact that, that person cannot provide me with satisfaction by answering my request, it upset me and...well yeah, i cried
ditelan mati mak, diluah mati bapak...tp ni bukn death matter or sumting related to that
macam mana rasanya nk berkorban?
macam mana rasanya melepaskan insan tersyg?
macam mana rasanya terpaksa buat, evn xnk buat?
macam mana rasanya bila nk buat, tp xley nk buat?
macam mana?
macam mana?
anyone???
setahun ak berjaya menyolokn diri, and finally i found sumone y ak rasa i can accept him and i can see him from now and then... but by one request from me to that important person, asking WHY?, that person made me feel miserable, guilty, and at fault... not that i did sumting wrong, but i just felt that my request was not fulfilled...
i'm 22 this year, but yet, i dont know... why i cant have? why cant i? why not me?
she has it when she's a lot more younger before
i know i switched many times, but doesnt mean i'm having fun doing so
this tym, its for real
this tym, i try to settle down
but i somehow wasnt allowed
mungkin terpaksa berkorban demi hilgkn kerisauannya
maybe akn lepaskn dia one day...
i'm so sorry, not that i want to, but i have to... i'm so sorry~
nota hati:
mengapa yang lain bisa mendua dgn mudahnya...
akan ak bahagiakan yang mahu bahagia
akan ak gembirakan y mahu gembira
akan ak sapu airmata y berduka
agar tak siapa tahu parut di hati ini
ya Allah, kuatkan hati hambamu ini (lagi)...amin ya rabbal alamin
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