just around the corner

ku rasa agak stressed out jgak sbenarnyer tym2 nk exam nih
tp alhamdulillah sgt2 ku bley jawab papers stakat nih dgn ok
hopefully markah len2 pn akn ok...insyaAllah, amin~



sekejap je masa berlalu
rasa mcm 2009 baru beberapa bulan
tp da smpai november, da dekat penghujung tahun pn
wondering...

apa kejahatan y ak dah buat tahun nih
apa kebajikan y ak dah bg kat org tahun nih
apa pulak org buat kat ak sepanjang 2009
berbaloi ke x semua aktiviti ak tahun nih
macam mana nk jd lebih elok tahun depan

tetiba teringat satu lagu...


when i'm lost on the way
and i cant face another day

if i stumble on the road
if i cant carry the load
if i lose my faith to kindness, generousity

would you hold my hand
say you'll understand my pain


few days ago, ku n rumet berdiskusi mcm2 hal... well, girls talk
life, families, studies... boys~ haha
one of my rumet ad prob ritu ngn bf, the other 2 were just very fine doing
ku? entahlah... someone told me
" i still dont see you settling down with only a guy "
kinda lose my faith in guys actually

after what i've gone through
i dont see myself attached to the only one
but i'm worried that i'll hurt the people around me
ku sgt xbermaksud nk sakitkn hati anyone
neither nk play the fool around

some people say that i'm being childish and fooling around too much
well, there's a reason for everything, right?
and there is a reason for my behaviour
but i'll just keep it to myself...


i dont want to listen to any lies anymore
i dont wanna hear sweet promises from anyone
i dont wanna hear things that will hurt me much worse
cause once broken, the shattered will take a long time to forget
and i'm so not good at forgetting
the broken pieces will forget their places
the tears will run as if there's no more to dry
the 'old' me will come out again and i dont wanna show it